Tuesday, October 23: Ooops, I did it again!

Well, I made the right decision by staying in Jackson Hole today and resting. I felt so ill last night and this morning my stomach was so sore, felt like I had been beaten internally...ick. Anywho, went to an internet cafe and planned out the next few days of my trip. I was all set to get back camping, but the overnight lows are dipping into the 20s in a lot of places and my mother has forbidden it.

I have my campground information together just in case it warms a few degrees, but I've been looking at cheap hotel/motel options instead. I'm on a tight budget after all.

At about 4:30ish, the cafe was closing and I made my way back to the lodge and moved my stuff into another room. It wasn't the deluxe suite that i'd had earlier, but it had a full kitchen, king bed and a fireplace. I wish I had someone there to share it with, it seemed like a romantic waste for just me. But yeah, back to the hotel and into the lobby to access the WiFi there and Richie was on again.

So, we chatted more about Apple and I gave him some more tips and info on software and hardware that he should look into while I chatted online with friends. Around 9pm he asked if I had dinner and I suggested Chinese food because those places always stay open later. Now, I had chit chatted with Richie and even his friends a few times before because that's just how I am and I didn't think there was any mixed emotion taking place here...I was soooooooo very wrong!!!

I went out and brought the food back and we ate our meal and chatted about my travels. Then, when the lobby closed at 10pm, I was all set to call it a night and go to bed. That's when it happened...he landed a kiss on me and tried to cop a feel. I was totally dumbfounded. my only reaction was "What are you doing?" How could I be so stupid, and where the fuck did he get off? Then I started wondering if he thought I owed him somehow for the room upgrade. As I had my hand on the mace in my pocket I just kept wondering what to do. Luckily, my stomach was starting to feel bad again (it was the first real food I'd had all day) so I used that as an excuse to say goodnight.

Yuck, I felt so dirty. Why can't boys and girls just be friends without all the bullshit. I know it's possible, I have male friends like this. Am I really so blind that I couldn't see the signs? I was pretty sure that i hadn't led him on. Oh, the horror. Richie was a nice enough guy, but there was nothing on my end that had any inclination for more than just random conversation on my travels. Oh well. I went up to room and brushed my teeth, trying to cleanse myself of the violation. He's lucky I didn't kick him in the balls.